The way in life, death, beyond—realization of limitlessness (mindfulness, nature-culture-society, the universal)

Meditative-active being in the experiential-pragmatic and limitless world

Nature, culture, and society—the world as found and made—immersion in nature and culture—living and travel

Reflection, sharing, writing, and publishing

The universal—the limitless world as we are and become it

General activities (constitutive—primarily experiential and spiritual | supporting—primarily and material)

Spiritual, inner, timeless

Meditation – Shamatha—emptying, calming; Vipasana—reflecting, redirecting

Attitude (also see ‘Today’)

Meditative presence—aware, relaxed, reflective, and no mind

Neutral engagement—disengage, have – request listening – assert and request boundaries, limits

Awareness of state neutral vs judgmental state > affirm positive, redirect negative

Hold without judging, breath, relax muscles, tolerate, examine – it’s me, not others > (re)direct, two-minute meditation-stretch > kindness to, do not avoid self or other – we’re all trying > dedicate to the ultimate > move on

Patience > Integrity of identity

Work on integrity; patience with pain; healthy behavior; work on independence from affirmation by others

Material, outer, temporal (also see projects…, below). Events

Life _________________________________________________________________________________________________

Annual—tax, Christmas, Robin 2/7, Veda Elise 8/1, Carissa 8/10, Beverly 8/15, Kathleen 11/8, Wendy 11/21 11/8 __________ _____________________________________________________________________________________________________

Month, bi-week, week __________________________________________________________________________________

Sunday—relax _________________________________________________________________________________________

Thu or Sat—Chores. Sunday—relax. See today. _______________________________________________________________

Main active projects (developing the way, travel, publishing and sharing the way)

Developing the way—intrinsically-instrumentally and attitudinally-actively, in all pure and pragmatic dimensions of being

Travel (cur trips-hike list-prep-bus: humb-trin-gdocs)—Jan 1, 2022 (review) (i) one year isolation (ii) nature-culture journeys

A year’s isolation _______________________________________________________________________________________

Nature, culture journeys _________________________________________________________________________________

Publish—study-reflect-write: bare content > essay, minimal site > write-in-the-world > access, site, advertise-publicize-talks

The narrative

the way of being – contents

into the way

the world

the way

into the world

the way of being – narrative

this workspace is currently minimal

into the way

the world

the way

into the world

Reading list—logic, free will, add __________________________________________________________________________

Now—review this—(the current essentials, travel preparation, health, people)

Essentials—step back > accept-redirect understand-dedicate pain > work-$30K | place: travel base hum-trin-us-mex > 18-φ CA

Calendar—year – taxes, birthdays, Christmas; 2022—year’s isolation, nature-culture journeys | develop below

Develop and place calendar here

Trips—next > details below > Hike / pack daily > USFS > cash, laundry, bank > pack, min > fresh veg

Planning

When… criteria: weather…

Where… research… RNP, W Ck, Six Rivers, Trinity – Junction City campground (call JC Store) – ride to trail heads (night at or hear trail head), HWY 3…

Future trips—backpacking and biking

Preparation—when written, put essentials into main heading ‘Next trip’, above

Minimizing gear means saving time

Misc—dye; umbrella / hat; small ground sheet—cut, organize and minimize of stuff sacks; shaver (new, try out)

Efficiency and weight—fasten side pocket; loose pants; wind vs reg pants; no rain pants; less food, fuel; sneakers vs sandals; bivvy—clothes peg, stakes, guy line, what are the attachments for; med sack; water sack? papers; cook kit; just one toothpaste

Priorities (from the previous trip > modify for next trip)

General—How, what to realize, reflect

The way, share, publish

Dedication

Life problems (sibling)

My life

The way, above

$ Work, other

Place, general

Eureka, Arcata Humboldt Del Norte, Trinity CA, US Mexico, World Isolation, 6 months, 1 year+

Intrinsic / extrinsic

Intrinsic

Meditate, nature watch

Hike

Extrinsic

X, stretch

Hike

Weaverville

Realtors

Internet

Word of mouth

Apartments

Health—posture, exercise > water, one meal a day (diet research: home and packing) > meds (0.5 tab), sugar, mole, no beer

People—R > .5 h prep, 1 day / month, no deferment; boundaries | G > neutrally | S > deal, dismiss | C > her initiative

Preliminary

Nothing I say here means I do not love you

That I am and have been concerned for your feelings and our relationship is one thing that has made dealing with the issue below difficult over the years and now

There is a softer, more explanatory version of this, but the meaning, point, and force of what I write to you seems to get lost in such versions

Soft analysis

Given two different functioning personalities, the sharing of ‘attitudes’ may be non-functional for one, the other, or the relationship, without either being ‘wrong’ or at fault. A reason for this is that personality is not a set of explicit independent propensities but a bound system integral to the identity (and reward system) of the individual. Thus problems arise among non-problematic people.

A responsible response is to identify and resolve issues.

Hard analysis

But our situation is not symmetric. You have been attempting to insert your attitudes in my life, not vice versa. If you deny this and say “I’m just saying…” I will remind you that you once said to me rather belligerently said to me about moving somewhere “be rational” and you continue to persist on the point whenever it comes up.

Problem

There are things you say that have and have had extremely negative impact on my life—feeling, function, time

There has recently been an adverse effect on my blood pressure

I am not saying you are the cause or are responsible—or not

… the core issue is not about you. That is, this is a problem—my problem, regardless whether you are saint, sinner, or just plain Robin

I experience this as intrusive and presumptuous, and it is bizarre that I should need to be concerned about you feeling bad because I don’t want the intrusion. I feel that you are overstepping natural boundaries of respect. I feel monitored.

Cost benefit

Thus the costs to me are enormous. Other costs are that you are not a sounding board, I hesitate to share, or ask for advice if I want it. However, the benefits are zero or negative in that your advice on important issues is either trivially obvious and partial or absurd.

Three main things, past and present, are—judgment, advice, and judgmental probing (especially around Christmas, birthdays, and vacations)

Judgmental probing examples? “Who are you going to spend the day with?”, “Do you have friends in the area?” and the judgment “I’m commiserating with you” and “You ought to think about that before moving”

It’s strange that you do not know that judgment and advice can be problematic—do an Internet search “on giving advice” or read the introduction to Robert Bolton’s People Skills

I will no longer be exposed to this

That it has continued for so long is my fault, for I should have been firm and clear earlier

Why now? I realized that if I do not take action, the problem will remain for the rest of our common lives

I accept consequences but not name calling

Solution—I want this relationship to be healthy

I do not want to conclude that this relationship is unhealthy (for me) and that is one of my current concerns.

That this is repetitious and that things (angry judgment on things I’ve done in my life and that have nothing to do with you) have then been denied makes me less hopeful. One reason I’m so insistent. But experience will tell.

If you do not stop, I will not call you until I receive a commitment that you will stop, and your behavior is consistent with the commitment

I want to talk to you monthly, not weekly (also so I can focus on my life). If we talk I don’t want “let’s talk day after tomorrow, too, unless there is a reason”.

I may be open to changing this later

I am not going to talk to you around or during vacations (until reassured as above; this is also because a focus of my vacations getting away from social influence, for renewal, and for focus my life and goals)

Isolation, 1y+

Today

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Attitude Awareness redirect Neutral engagement Meditative presence Patience integrity of identity ____________________________________________________________________________________________________

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> Projects and activities, above, especially bare content Music _________________________________________

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> Continue projects after _________ below _________________________________________________________

> Walk > Stretch, weights, grip, knee bends > Meditate > Lunch _______________________

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> Chores for the day (Sun—relax, Tue—R) ___________________________________________________________ __________________________________________________________________________________ Thu / Sat—Chores

Thu / Sat—Chores > This > Hair, feet > Clean > Cash > Supplies – for cooking – what I have, pulses, grains, vegetables, nuts, tortillas, yogurt | cleaners – paper food-storage | meds, toilet| stamps, envelopes, cards | maintain clothes, gear, bike ___________________________________________________________________________________________________

> Exercise TTHSAT &OR Walk-bike with nature photography MWF _____________________________________

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> PM PMX Review this, print, rest, shower | Realize projects engage meditate |φ beer-movie ____ ___________________________________________________________________________________________ > Sleep

This > auto day, life, week

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Detailed planning—

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