My goals

Arrange room (house)

Less social media (time, value)

Roommate

Anxiety tools (moment to moment)

Messages are positive and negative. When in a good place, more are positive.

Be aware

Acknowledge the old negative voice

Realistic appraisal – Pema: be aware of, just feel the feeling without judging – positive message – curiosity-self compassion – move on, redirect

Pause from the negative and double negative (“I’m inadequate because I think I’m inadequate”)

Especially when tired, take a short time out

When meditating be aware of the messages and employ the tools

Housemate—I need to not depend on your timeliness (or not) to deal with things like Internet interruptions (this is difficult, not because I’m not at all assertive but because of ignoring, non-acknowledgment).

Meditate (a) reduce anxiety (b) reflect on tools, above

Fluids

Exercise

Alcohol (a) less to none (b) deal with the conflict (time, health, money… vs enjoyment vs dependence)—e.g., two beers occasionally

Have my life together, the way I used to feel it to be

Meditative presence to what is real

Review goals and categories; reduce to fewer categories and items

Write (philosophy)

Nature

Travel

Cash

Girlfriend

Carissa (my daughter)

Robin (my brother)

Place to stay

Place to be